Sunday, February 13, 2011

When the going gets tough...

Kick going's *ss!

Life is not always easy.
Why is my mom addicted to drugs and alcohol? Why did my parents divorce? Why does my son have to live life without ever meeting his grandma? Why does my grandma constantly put me down, day by day by day? Why are people in the world going hungry? Why do people have to suffer from AIDS & cancer? Why do women have to go months trying to become pregnant, & never get the chance to hold a precious bundle of joy of their own? Why do men cheat on their wives & beat them black & blue? Why do people have to live under bridges and in abandoned buildings? Why are children being kidnapped and forced to have sex with strangers for money?

Why do bad things happen to good people?

I don't know why.

Maybe the world would be a better place if good things happened to good people, and bad things happened to bad people. An eye for an eye. Maybe? Maybe then everyone would try to be good & the world would be such a hormonious & happy place. Wouldn't that be great?

All I know is, life is never easy. I recently shared words of encouragement with a fellow bloggette that were bestowed upon me that always helps when hard times hit. Now, right now... I don't feel like I'm struggling with hard times. It's not easy being away from my soldier & taking the sole responsibility for my son day in & day out, living with a cruel & unhappy family member until the big move overseas, looking in the mirror & hating the person that stares back at me, being hours away from family & friends... no, it's not easy. I just know that it could be worse, and it has been worse. So I'm thankful for the strength & grace God has blessed me with to get through these little pot holes. I'll take pot holes over bayous any day!

However, I do know people close to me and people who I follow here on Blogger that are going through some really, really hard times. My heart aches for these people, even those who I barely know anything about or have never met... I just have a big heart. I just care. & I pray. I hope it's helping, because that's all the help it seems I can offer.

Now the words of wisdom that were once shared with me, that I feel every person could benefit from...
What we don't realize during trials & tribulations is that everything we're going through will one day just be a memory.

That's all. Just a memory. We will look back at these days that seem never ending, even if we wish they would just end & stop right there... & we will have grown from those days, we will have become better people, we will be stronger, we will be happier, we will appreciate & be thankful. If you just hang on to your faith and keep a positive mindset {fake it 'til you make it!} - you can get through hell & back!

I don't know about you, but I would much rather have good memories than bad ones. Even if times are hard, you have to use that positive mindset to bold the better aspects of your days so that when you look back, that's all you will see. Any good student knows that only the bold words will be on the test, duh. =) haha jk ... but seriously, don't take study tips from me =) ...& just think about it. Think ahead for a minute & consider how you want to remember these days.

In good cheerleader form, I will shake my poms & I say to you : I'll be cheering for ya! =)

w/ LOVE♥

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Welcome to Europe!

[insert blog title here] <-- So that's what the e-mail said! =)
Until further notice (because this can very well change at any moment, even to the last),
GERMANY - here we come!!

Any blog bff's staying in that region (Grafen....something.. hahaha)?
Tips, advice, comments (besides that I need to learn the actual name of the area.. I already know! =\ I'm working on it! lol) - any & all welcome! =)

w/ LOVE♥

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

No more "stinkin' thinkin'"!

It is amazing how simply thinking with a more positive undertone can allow more positivity to shine through in every aspect of your daily life.

I challenge you to smile when you want to frown, look up when you want to look down, praise instead of scold, pray when you want to cave, declutter your vocab (say "I've been better, but I'm good!" instead of "I've had worst days, but I'm okay."). Using positive words and phrases versus negatives can make a difference to yourself and the people you're speaking to.

Sunday before I left post after a weekend of visiting my soldier, we went to the gym. How intimidating it is to hit up a gym when you are out of shape and everyone around you is in excellent shape, let me tell you. But I grabbed a towel, a bottle of water, and jumped that hurdle with grace. He wanted to shoot basketball so he went one way and I surveyed the area until I found a room of machines where there were mostly girls. hahah Girls are less intimidating, some even a little fluffier so yay. =)

I burned cals, sweated, felt tired, pushed even further, sipped on my water, and pushed myself some more. I kept setting mini-goals. First I told myself I'd stop after 5 minutes, then it was the 2 mile mark, then it was 20 minutes, then it was howevermany calories, then before I knew it... I accomplished a whole HOUR of cardio. Are you kidding me? I thought I was too fat and out of shape, but what I realized was I've just been having a terrible case of stinkin' thinkin'!

I will get in shape again. I will be fit. I will be healthy.
I will and I can hardly wait, but I will do that too! =) haha

w/ LOVE♥

Thursday, February 3, 2011

OKAY, something like a post =)

So who is the lamest person ever at sitting back & relaxing?
Oh yes.
It's me, hands down. =)

I dropped the little man off to stay with a few of his fave family members & drove down from Memphis to Bama, before the worst of the weather showed up. Thankfully I got here early enough to visit with my soldier for a little bit before his curfew (...street lights are on, hunnie...hehehe...) & then made it to my room. Now I'm here typing away.

Speaking of my little man... Thanks for all the prayers, thoughts & wishes! I am so grateful that people I've never met in person care enough to take a minute out of their daily life for my son. That's just so sweet! God bless ♥

Oh &he is feeling much better & back to fighting the crimes of the world. One big smile at a time! =)

Real quick before I lay down... the day after my kiddo started feeling better, I was layed out in bed with an achey & weak body, on & off fever, feelings of nausea... & at one point during the day, I felt a sharp, stabbing pain in my left side. I didn't think too much of it at the time because my whole body hurt anyway, but now a couple days later... I'm still having this pain & it's not getting any better. I'm worried that maybe I was right & I am preggo, but perhaps it's an EP? I'm not sure. Has anyone ever experienced an ectopic pregnancy? Or does anyone have any other ideas as to what may be wrong? [insert terrified face here] I'm going to lay down & try to make it through the night without a trip to the ER. I hope to see some sort of doc tomorrow here in Huntsville if it doesn't get better.

w/ LOVE♥

Check her bloggie out!

One of my real life friends started a blog, She's sweet as could be, so please go check her out & follow her if you'd like. =)

K thanks!

Update a little later!

w/ LOVE♥