The only way to explain how I feel about my life at this moment is to reminisce about one of my favorite childhood past times. Rolling down hills. :) (What can I say? I'm a Texan! haha) I'm rolling down this huge hill right now, & my head is just spinning so fast that I don't have the slightest idea when I will hit the bottom of this thing but the anticipation & stomach-churning is so fun & exciting that I'm not sure if I even care!
A couple months ago, if God Himself had parted the clouds & told me that this is where my life was taking me, I would've probably looked for Ashton Kutcher. Life has been such a struggle the past few years. I failed out of two colleges, went through numerous troublesome boyfriends, date raped at a party, totalled my car, struggled with drugs & alcohol...then things got a little better for a while. I started on repairing my relationship with God. I started going to church 3 times a week. I enrolled in college, made good grades, tried out & made the cheerleading squad. I met a football player, fell in love. For Christmas, we went on a cruise with my family.. & I found out I was pregnant. I was scared, excited, & ashamed. When I was younger I had dreams of how life would go. I dreamt of graduating college, traveling, getting engaged, working & traveling some more, getting married, then the house, then the kids, etc. I guess I'm just a backwards kind of girl.
In less than a month, my son will be turning a year old. In October, his dad - now my husband (known only by a few select people, the army, &.. you! hehe), will be departing for basic training.
I'm just gonna keep on rolling, I guess. :)